Oh Thank God!
So this is out of order, just because I don’t want people to worry. He did not commit suicide. He was found alive, in jail, in another state. And it’s bad, so very bad. I’m not going to go into any more details.
Suicide?
So I got a call today from people back in Atlanta. Seems my son has up and disappeared, leaving everything behind with a suicide note. No one has seen him since Wednesday. From what I have been told his girlfriend broke up with him so he quit his job and ran off into the woods to end his life.
The police have been contacted and are looking for him. I’ve given as much help as I can from here, supplying what I know of the therapist he was seeing, although I have a feeling he stopped at some point.
Get Help
If you feel like you have nothing to live for, it’s not true. You may not see it now but there are people out there who care about you and would be devastated to lose you. Please get help. Talk to someone. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is always available at 1-800-273-8255.
Feelings
I’m really not sure that I believe he would do it. He’s had a history of suicide threats for attention. I’m hoping this is just a cry for attention. He has so many people in his life that care about him. So many people are worried sick right now.
He’s my son and I want him to be okay. I really wish there was something more I could do to help. I’ve felt for a while it was something he could do, that’s why he was in therapy (among other things). I’m sure I could have done a lot of things differently, but the past can’t be changed.
I feel kind of numb. I’m not good with loss. Hell, I’m not good with emotions in general. Really though, my first thought is he didn’t go through with it and he’s just run off or is hiding out somewhere. That’s my hope at least. I keep wracking my brain trying to think of things I can do to help.
Featured Image
Today’s featured image was an attempt to put my day’s feelings in a picture.
